There's music in love, love in music, and life is all in between

Friday, December 16, 2005

Last Time

ok so for the anonymous comment... the dashboard thing is a poem i wrote (and needs fixing... i improvised)

ok so im going to miami Argg... i have a mixture of excitement and fear. i mean come on such a long time... will i bear it?! in other news... well... forget it.

is this the right time?
or is it just the last time
to say how things are suppose
to be.

i wonder how many more perfect
ones there are and only caring this
last dance will play forever.

i dont remember if i've said these
words before, i no longer know
its for the best you know.

perhaps i should just wave goodbye now
and skip the funeral and eulogy
that will eventually come.

I was a beggar to love that had left
me here to starve, in the dark twisted
streets of revolution

so you could be the last time or only the
ghost of this belief i have indocriniced
myself to learn.

farewell is such a permanent word
but i'll wave goodbye, be on my

perhaps it wouldnt have ended this way
but baby gravity's lost it's hold on me and
I will not fall again.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Bad habits

i was listening to this song today bad habits by michael tolcher and its such a beautiful song. it makes you think of how we live our lives. see there is this part in the song why would you work without living, selling your soul. many times in our multiple experiences in human bodies (firm believer in reencarnation) we will repeat our same mistakes because we do so much and live so little if not at all. I compare my life as a young girl(im talkin like 7 or 8 years old) and now, its so true how our innocence allows us to feel alive and enjoy this moment thats not long, every second is less time to gain new experiences, less time to try to mend our mistakes and learn from them.

i often wished things would have been different and in these last 3 of 4 months, i have learned much. it is so important to try to enjoy every second, to take risks (postive ones), to allow yourself to feel free. it has been so hard for me to feel free in my mind. well if you notice how much i write, you'll understand that i think way way too much and gaining this sense that i can just let go and be content with being laying in my bed and doing nothing. download the song, look at the lyrics and then you;ll understand.

in other news:
i finally tried to wakeboard, yup i've been going to the lake for like about a year or more probably more.... yeah way more and i never wanted to try it. so today i gave it a chance and it was fun. taking into consideration that ive known everything in theory i did excellent. of course theory isnt as hard as the practice, but it helps too know it...

A Confession in Dashboard Language

In an attempt to make a dashboard confession
i squirm in the seat of your car trying to get
the courage to say,
you have become the ghost of a good thing for me
and i will like nothing more than to pull you close
in an attempt to avoid this becoming my best
deception. i will with most certainty feel the rapid
hope loss of this brilliant dance that we have
learned. if only i could make this the good fight
to make a stand for all those who've known
broken hearts and concrete floors in order
to succeed i must bend and not break, in order
not to suffer from the sharp hint of new tears.
i have made this a long good night trying to point
out the hidden realities of which i want you
to believe fate took part in this and put you
in my light to guide me out of this place that
i have come to fear the most. the knowledge of
my lose has left this old wound open and aching
and with this i end only saying that,
like the drifting vehicules that pass through here
who's headlights seem to captivate us
i've been asked by my own soul to bare my heart
out to you in expectation that after you hear
these thoughts you will left with no choice but
to vindicate me.