There's music in love, love in music, and life is all in between

Friday, December 28, 2007

let's just sway

I'll leave the guilty in the corner

Band of choice: Flyleaf

Song of choice: Broken wings

quote of choice: "I am floating in serenity"

thinking about the ingenuities for seeking peace....

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Long road to ruin

trouble sleeps in empty alleys

broken spirits swarm the room looking for solace in their own wretchedness
and here i seem to join them, amused in my own sorrow. borrowing the strength
of these shadowless souls i mourn my own lose today. and as i wait to perish from
my own misfortunes, i feel the misery regurgitate inside me. Perhaps im stranded
in limbo and havent realized it yet. Because my surroundings seem filled with
emptyness, the same emptyness thats decomposed my arm leaving me handicapped,
unable to hold on to the rope thats been set for me to climb.

And it always ends the same way.

i'll see you falling

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Broken Wings

Still she turns away, as she see shapes and curses come her way. She tries to hide, half expecting the future to pass her by. Because somehow its all lost... and a search has started to find the pieces of her broken wings. She tries to take flight and again lands among the mortals, her missing wing a signal of defeat. Confusing tales remind her of a past not far from here, where she lent her wing to a stranger who ravaged her kindness with bitter neglect. Particles fall like rain between them, missing pieces of a puzzle that no longer betrays her. She gently stares at the stars who she will never experience close once more, the sky whose breath she will never again feel, and whose moon wont craddle her to sleep. As she wanders through the pages of this old books she weeps for the stories that cant never be built back up. And the stranger? still rumiging the streets for crumbs, perhaps wishing he never tantalized her.

"There it is, just another puppet"

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Because there are still concrete floors

Mood: apathetic

Quote:"Hold one before its too late"

We are just empty things
running around searching
for our impossible dreams.


A tired soul in a healty body......


The hush sound: "you are the dark ocean bottom and i am
the fast sinking anchor, should i fall for

Saturday, August 04, 2007

stay a little while

"Nada es real, nada es verdad si no lo puedo tocar, si no lo puedo mirar, puedo esperar un dia mas para poder tocar"

wont you stay another day, if only for a while...

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

clearing spaces

not usually, creo k muy dificil k vaya a carribean.

abandoned memories fill the empty room
the unclearness of my mind betrays me
spilling secrets that have been kept
too long.


i hope im just like you.....

to have your kindness, your ability to change people's mind, your capacity to play any instruments, to take pictures, to have big dreams, to love

I love my sisters (even when i want to kill them)

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Are you scared to let them know its you?

self inflicting heartbreak

wishes of unfufilled dreams
seeking refuge in thoughts
so weak.

and in the pinnacle of love
heartbreak looms by.

Monday, July 09, 2007

beneath concrete floors

Lost in a sea of thoughts
drowning in words, drowning
in letters that make no
sense to the common man.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Lost in the Sea

"i am not your carpet ride, i am the sky"

"i am not your rolling wheels, i am the highway"

"i will pray to the gods and the angels, like a pagan, to anyone who will take me to heaven"

"In your house i long to be, rooom by room, patienltly, ill wait for you there like a stone, ill wait for you there alone"

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Weary roads

Love ties you down
with knots so tight
you stumble and fall
but never once able to
rid yourself from the
strings that bind you
to the past.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Waiting to remember

Time since past
has not yet been forgotten.
the last remaining light
fires up the sky and posses
a heart to cold to bleed.

reaching for a memory
reaching for the key
that would upon up misplaced
doors and rooms too far to

time since past
has not yet been forgotten.
The fear has since been
derailed to a fragile part
of the soul, turning circles
on old wounds.

you'll make your heart stop

Shattered dreams fall to the ground, like stars falling from the sky.

unwanted words o deaf ears

a tired soul weeps in discomfort
a thousand stories under its heels
walking to forget, able only to remember.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I cant explain myself at all

"Heaven i need a rest, i recognize the voices in my head, i cant make out everything the voices said."

knife carving silence takes over the empty room
ill-fitting stories fill the board, sharing only
but sadness and petty hopes.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Thursday, May 10, 2007

pizza for a homeless

In the few moments before his execution began all he asked for was pizza for a homeless... the goverment refused... everyone else donated.

he killed a cop... he has an addict and he tried to rob a Wendy... do you think that deserved the death penalty? cause i think since he was under the influence it automatically should derail the possiblity of death.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

tested and true

so i finally got my laptop back (which was one of the main reasons i barely write, since its so not inspiring sitting on a chair).

well i was hoping to write a bit more today... not only an excuse for my abscense but i gotta get to work... but before i will leave my new acquisition of a secret.

Monday, April 16, 2007

With blinding faith

I need to clear that the post i wrote before this one was for a friend that passed away along time ago.

"Was it a glimpse of the future or of that that could have been?"

If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine.. knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone else.

She's covering her tears with her smile
behind her frozen sadness, she contemplates
the lack of sounds surrounding her.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Cause its cold inside

ive been thinking about stars and rainbows....

when the sky was tainted grey
thoughts of color crossed my head

i cant get you out of mind and i cant pretend i remember what it was like to be next to you. i've forgotten what it smelled like, ive forgotten what they were. but i still remember all the words and i remember all the colors. because somehow its never over, we could forget some things and we will remember others, but most of all the feelings never seem to disappear. Feelings like these are the only ones time has no power over. i wonder if you've forgotten, i wonder wether youre so busy looking down on others you missed me. I never fully understood what it meant to lose someone till years after i lost you, i have ideas of how i would of reacted differently and perhaps kept a stronger memory, stronger answers to why. but all i got was simplicity, but perhaps thats all the reason i need.

*perhaps in heaven i could answer all my doubts.. still missing you... still wishing you were here.

Song of choice: Radios in heaven - plain white t's

My mind is a machinery

I want to cause change inside people... perhaps making a difference in a simple way.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

With thoughts in my head

i'm missing my moon tonite...

I am waiting, dreaming, being.

can you come sing me to sleep,

cause ive been awake for so long

i've forgotten how to close my eyes.

I promise i wont look back when my

mind plays tricks on me late at night

while im waiting for the sunrise.

theres a beautiful silence thats burning

inside while im searching for the answers

that lay hidden in the past.

wont you come sing me to sleep tonight

and perhaps i wont be so restless when

this thoughts creep once again into my mind.

and im thinking of what was and what might have been.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

This world will break your heart

Anyways i know i havent written lately for that i apologize... all do my best que no vuelva a pasar.... Im glad everything is going great for you and for those whose life aint going that peachy.... well... better luck next time.

quote of the day: "My tears run down like razorblades And no, I'm not the one to blame It's you ' or is it me? "-secondhand serenade

i drive by empty streets trying to listen

to sounds i know ive missed.

I wish that i had the chance to change

all that couldve been.

i stay awake at night hugging the broken

pieces of a bear i cant let go off.

the night all of the sudden seems so terrifying

when the abscence is clear.

I cant tell how this story will end

im just hoping your in a better place.

i could cry all day even when ive done all i could do. Your breaking my heart, im falling to pieces, i cant take it back, i cant make it right, and i tried. im losing my heart, im losing mind. listen to my moon, listen to the world.. the world that will break our heart.

Friday, February 02, 2007

I was trying to save you

I'm afraid i didnt get a chance to tell you
that every single second you were here you
made me see new light. You taught me
acceptance and to try even when we know
we'll fall.

This time of year always reminds me of you and the idea that i didnt get to spend more time with you before you left. Still missing you.

*hoping to meet again in heaven

"I know one day you and i will be free to live and die by our own rules... despite the fact that men are fools"

I was trying to disappear but i got lost in your eyes

Everyone is vain to a certain degree, its learning to see inside each person, we are all attached to something. There's a person out there for everyone, its about taking a deep breath and waiting for it to come around the corner.
Im planning a comeback... im waiting for the perfect moment....

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Like razorblades

Thought of the day: empty storyboard

Song of choice: Finger twist and split - Cute is what we aim for

Quote of the day: And jealousy's the cousin, the cousin of greed - Curse of curves


Tuesday, January 16, 2007

One less reason

Could you find the words

to make this just the

beggining. I could say that

this wont hurt, but it be a

promise sold in vain.

We could be starting all over

in a world built for just us.

I could say this could be easy,

but its not all clear.

Dont go packing your things yet

i cant promise happiness. we

could only have our love to keep

us safe.

But in the save haven of the stars

im set on making this go on. Through

empty promises and hopeless love.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Holes in difficult places

Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever- a beautiful silence

And now that i find myself alone once again
needing chords to enlighten my days and the
comfort of your egocentric personality to
cause me disdains throught my days. im
finding myself alone missing parts of myself
im wondering where the punk princess has
gone and if the dilemas of everyday decisions
will ever come back. Because i find myself
all alone tonight missing my sisters.


Monday, January 08, 2007

Songs never die

Insomniac's guide to making emo quotes:

you never know if the worst is behind you so hit me with your best shot because this is for you.

i wish i'd never brought it up ,but the consequence is made, so i hope you miss me cause im not coming home.

and there is a beautiful silence here tonight and im never letting go of these kisses i stole from you.

beats that bring tears to your eyes and melodies to make your heart
break. Tearing out your smile.

And im not waiting forever cause its a cold september day

Cause she's storybook beautiful, standing infront of me with her heart on her sleeve.

Suffocating on Drowning love.

your eyes are the reason, my heart is beating, your smiles the reasons, that i keep breathing. (Beautiful silence)- mind you this is the only quote that is not mine

*TE AMO... When you find someone you see yourself able to spend the rest of your life with, you want the rest of your life to start right now*

An insomniac's guide to an EX- lonely heart

sing me a melody and send me a sign,

cause im feeling invincible tonight.

and my heart is exploding with

all the emotions i cant seem to

hide. this magic around me has

been used up and all im left with

is my own individuality.

You've empowered me with your

love, It's uncondicional, simple,

real and true. Ive found myself

in your eyes and i believe that

its true... i was made to love you.