One song at a time

I have a confession to make.... here it goes: i can rap all the raps eminem sings in love the way you lie both... part one and two. Its hard to explain how my love for this started but it brings out all of my bottled up anger. It brings out all the hate in my and sets it off like fire in my heart as i scream at the top of my lungs the lyrics. wondering perhaps, if i sing loud enough the empty feeling will disappear.  I was amazed by how realistic the video was... that and my jealousy towards megan fox. I want to be megan fox. i mean who wouldnt shes the icon for this new generation sexy, sweet, and full of tattoos. She's the girl i want to be. so thats why love the way you lie became important to me.

i'm not usually a rap fan, mostly because if you know me i like things i can break my heart to. Whats important in this confession is the betrayal im about to commit. I must free this.... my best friend.... he loves it too. I'm thinking it has to do alot with this passive-agressive tendency we have. It also has alot to do with my ex fiancee.....

My best friend and i have kept this secret kinda-off sort-off well hidden. We blast the song during our escapes from the city with me usually screaming the rap part and then trying to catch my breath to sing the rhianna part. i usually do the whole hand gesturing that rappers are so fond of. i can imagine the ones looking into my window must think i lost my mind as i jump up and down my car seat with one hand gesturing threats to my best friend. Love the way you lie has become the representation of what i shouldve done two years ago. i know it sounds worrying, but darlings, if you knew what i went through you'd understand better.

So eminem may have actually written my whole relationship in a song, raps included.... he made me want to put on lingerie and sing in the middle of a burning house while grabbing my inexistent balls at the same time.